November 23, 2010

two colors in my head





"If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected..."



Are thoughts ever really lucid for long? most of the time i feel like my thoughts are mostly in progress with only moments of clarity. even if there is a clear moment, it seems that my brain will move onto the next idea before any real conclusions can be drawn. i wonder if our subconscious keeps our most clear thoughts hidden. i have a feeling in our sleep this is where we can find some sort of clarity.

My dreams are mostly nonsensical & chaotic. At the same time, it's so strange that dream life seems so clear when you're sleeping. Your newly acquired ability to fly & breathe fire...makes complete sense because you make it valid with your own dream logic. (that was from some dream where i was a dragon btw - which was prrrretty bad ass). how strange your brain has to almost shut down to be able to process your subconscious.

when awake, i find i have to consciously tell myself to focus when i notice my mind wandering. I wonder if you even need a game plan for your mind in order to find order for your thoughts. It kind of makes sense to get those kinds of things set so you can find direction & then finally some clarity for your mind. Maybe i'm wrong though...maybe the future will be what it will be, and you just have to find joy in the moment. Maybe things aren't supposed to be completely clear anyways....maybe life will always continue to unfold new mysteries about everything.

1 comment:

  1. I have these same thoughts. I'm always in my head recalling certain situations and trying to make sense of them when I should be doing my work. It's easy to lost in your mind. I feel that I do a lot processing of events in dreams yet I still have no clarity when I awake. I always quote Colin Firth in A Single Man when talking about life and how our brains work:

    "A few times in my life I've had moments of absolute clarity, when for a few brief seconds the silence drowns out the noise and I can feel rather than think, and things seem so sharp and the world seems so fresh. I can never make these moments last. I cling to them, but like everything, they fade. I have lived my life on these moments. They pull me back to the present, and I realize that everything is exactly the way it was meant to be."

    I think that is such a pivotal point in the movie and most moving for those that feel that their life and thoughts are chaotic...anyways, I am rambling now. Originally I was just going to comment that I agree with your thoughts but like always I tend to go on a tangent...Apologies.

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